This week I’ve loved rediscovering a bit of me again.
A bit of the girl I used to be before I became a mum.
For a long while now I’ve kind of hidden away a little bit, unhappy with my body image, I’ve sort of become a little bit of a hermit and often found it far easier to decline nights out with even my friends.
Home has been a safer place for me, where no-one can judge me or look down on me.
Another reason I back away from going out is sometimes that I feel guilty about leaving my husband to look after the children. There are plenty of times where he’ll be out playing golf for entire days but I then feel so madly guilty and bad if I just pop out for a few hours even to the local shops!
I have become better at this lately, having attended a couple of blog conferences etc, but this week things just seemed to become easier.
My social calendar is filling up again and I’ve been out and about with friends, chatting about silly things over drinks or suppers out, discussing serious issues, like proper adult talk, being there for one another and sometimes just out for a good laugh.
I’ve missed these times, and though I don’t expect them to be a daily thing or anything, as I have my other responsibilities to attend to, I hope they become a little more regular.
It’s been so refreshing finding time for myself again, I just hope for it to continue. Though I know this will be down to me saying ‘yes’ and accepting the invites, rather than anything else.
Perhaps this is me turning a corner.
I hope so.
Life is too short to worry about the little things – especially the things we can’t change.
It’s time to love ourselves for who we are and just enjoy life!