What, what, what is a st-st-stammer mummy??

For quite a while now our eldest daughter, H (well, actually the only one who can talk seeing as the other is only one!) has been experiencing some problems with the fluency of her speech.


We had noticed that this was the case, but really didn’t think too much of it, let alone to think to actually class it as a stammer.

We just thought it was part of her growing up.

As far as we were concerned, she was still learning so much and taking in vast quantities of new and wondrous information on a daily basis and had just too many new and exciting words she wanted to use all at once, which just meant they came out as either a big jumble or in a type of stammer/stutter

It wasn’t until one of H’s beloved nursery staff members (who’s looked after H from when she was first in nursery aged just one), just took me to one side and asked if we’d noticed h had a stammer.

At first I suppose I was a bit taken aback.

I agreed that we had noticed this at home, but thought it’d just been part of her growing up, and having no one to compare her against made it even harder in a way for us to notice.

It hurt that someone else was pointing out that my baby girl might have something wrong too, that someone had noticed. Though a relief at the same time as it meant that something had to be done.

And then I became upset (though I hid it well from the staff member).

It just dawned on me that for all this time, where we’ve just assumed all is ok and that she’ll grow out of it, there really has been a problem

A problem that as loving, doting, caring and responsible parents – we really should have picked up on and addressed, a long time ago.

I came away feeling like a very bad parent indeed.

My little girl obviously had some sort of problem with her speech and both Mr B and I were too bloody naive and stupid to recognise it might actually need looking into and dealing with.

I was so very angry at myself.

The very next day I phoned up the doctors, made appointments and had her put on the referral list for our local speech clinic.

Recognising a stammer

So exactly what is stammering?

The easiest way I can explain this is to write out some examples taken from the information we’ve now been given from the clinic in her assessment.

So the ones we have found most prevalent with H are:

  • The repetition of the beginning letter of a word like “p-p-p-p-please”
  • A whole word is sometimes repeated like “my-my-my-my-my name is”
  • And thirdly, a whole phrase or part of a sentence is repeated.. ‘cos she, cos she, cos she wanted to’

Other ways a stammer may be noticed are:

  • A single sound isn’t just repeated, but more so it is constant, described as ‘stretched out’ even eg, “ssssssssee what I mean?”
  • And finally it could be where the beginning sound gets completely stuck, and nothing comes out at all “!!!”


Back to Little H…

We’re still very much learning about this condition, more and more so each time we attend the sessions, though we’ve only been to two now, but have our third booked in a few weeks.

And I believe in my heart that we’ve hopefully discovered it early enough to do something about it and really make a difference.

All in all, her therapist was pretty positive about the condition where H was concerned, though did highlight that because there was rather a severe case of stammering in our family history, this adds to a score count that puts her at a higher risk of developing a stammer further or of not really growing out of it. In which case, we would adapt the therapy sessions and step them up a bit to the next level.

Also at the moment we are very lucky, in that H is totally unaware of it.

It certainly doesn’t seem to be affecting her confidence and she doesn’t seem to get frustrated or embarrassed.

I think she is too young really to understand it.

If in actual fact she is aware of it, there is absolutely no sign of it holding her back currently.

Though obviously, this may all change when she goes up to pre-school in September, where the more educational and academic syllabus kicks in.

I suppose we will just have to watch this space.

A lot of the time, Mr B and I have become very used to her speech, and it is just an everyday thing to us now, but other times it gets to me.

I was just sat with her this evening and we were watching Mickey Mouse clubhouse together. Well, she was watching it, whilst I was getting irate over trying to ‘pop’ out the fuzzy felt pieces from her new pack.

She got so excited at one point that she turned to me and tried her hardest to tell me what was happening with Minnie Mouse in the story. As she was trying to tell me, I found my heart just melting. I could feel tears whelming behind my eyes and I just squeezed her tight.

She just couldn’t get the sentence out. I felt so hurt on her behalf.

And I felt bad

Awfully bad

Yes it could have been a number of reasons why she was talking like this, it can be caused from over excitement, tiredness, lack of complete concentration, all manner of reasons that we are still learning about.

As parents, the therapist has given us certain instructions and action sheets etc with which to help her. We’re to each spend only five minutes with her about three times a week where we’re to turn off the TV, get rid of all other distractions, and have one to one playtime with her where she is free and easy to express herself, in a safe, comfortable and most importantly for H, and unrushed, unhurried environment.

The idea is that we concentrate together on a single task, be that a jigsaw puzzle, a story book, a board game, where I make a concerted effort to speak slower than I do in my everyday life, make lots of eye contact, listen carefully and give her uninterrupted, time where she is free to express herself as she pleases and at the rate she pleases..

And do you know what, on the times we’ve done this, it’s worked.

It makes me wonder when this all started to happen in the first place, and I wonder now if it coincided with the birth of Ella. Is it an attention thing? Is it that she is now having to fight to get my attention so is having more difficulty getting her words out.

I then feel awful about this and feel guilty that I may have perhaps neglected her needs.

Which if I have; I am devastated.

And although this sounds ridiculous, sometimes I find it really hard to find time to spend just that five minutes with her.

If Mr B is out, and I have both girls to deal with, by the time we’ve had tea, baths, milk and struggled to get the little one to bed, I’m knackered, exhausted and to be honest, I pretty much forget that I need to do this.

I also feel guilty if I write a blog post. Is it taking the precious time that I should really be dedicating to H?

Though, if I was to try make myself feel a little better, in the whole grand scheme of things, five minutes really isn’t that long a time, and if I think about it, we generally spend this time with her as a rule anyway, just not noticeably I suppose as the advised ‘special time’.

Oh I don’t know. I’m very upset, confused, riddled with guilt, scared for her as I don’t want her to be picked on or bullied later down the line and as I suppose with every mother/father out there – we just want the very best for our children.

I love her with all my heart and the last thing I want is for her to be affected by something.

Perhaps even something that with time and help from us, can easily be fixed.

There seems to be a whole host of emotions just whizzing around in my head.

I’m afraid I’ve just used this post as a bit of a sounding board, and I apologise.

I will write again about this when I have more information, or just to report back with Holly’s progress as she heads into her third session and to pre-school.

In the meantime, if any of you other lovely mummy’s or daddy’s have any experience of this I would dearly love to hear from you.

Thanks for listening


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  1. 10th October 2014 / 9:25 pm

    Bless you, hun. Don’t for a minute feel guilt as a parent that you didn’t do anything sooner. Little H will hopefully flourish and you’ll notice a gradual progression and improvement. I teach a little boy with a stammer and we get him to tap out the words on his leg before he speaks. It really helps him. Let me know if you’d like anymore tips or advice. It’s such early days for you all. Sending you a hug lovely lady xx

    • 22nd October 2014 / 5:21 pm

      Aww thank you honey. What an ingenious idea for the leg tapping. She is actually doing rather well now and we have a noticed a marked improvement, so we are hoping she will jet grow out of it after all. As parents we totally worry about everything though don’t we. I’m sure that won’t be the end of it either!!! Hope you are well?? xx

  2. 16th August 2014 / 2:27 pm

    I totally understand that you were upset at first at not having taken note of the fact that H’s stammer may be a problem. Then again, it’s common to think of your child as an individual rather than constantly comparing her to standardsi and other children. That’s good in a way. It’s good therefore that there are other people, like nursery staff, in her life. You’re not a bad parent for not having recognized H’s speech problem. It would’ve been a problem if you continued to be in denial despite the nursery staff’s observations, or if you refused to get services for her despite the Obvious need. #PoCoLo

    • 17th August 2014 / 12:43 pm

      Thank you so much for your comment – you are right. At least we were were able to be ‘told’ and actually listened. Which now takes us to where we are today, seeking advice and at the therapy classes. I have high hopes for our Little H – as we are lucky as her problem isn’t as severe as others. Thanks again for your words. x

  3. 15th August 2014 / 8:38 pm

    Ahhhh…sweetheart, I just want to give you a massive hug. I am sure this must be really upsetting. Watching our children really struggle with something is heartbreaking. But this is not your fault. You are an AMAZING mummy. And it sounds like there wasn’t anything you could have done to prevent her stammer.

    My niece had a stammer when she was about H’s age. They took her to a speech therapist. They were told that hers was caused because she had so much to say and just couldn’t get it all out. Or struggled to find the vocabulary to express her thoughts or feelings. They were advised to not draw attention to it and never correct her or finish her sentences for her. They were also told to speak slowly to her and allow her to take her time to express herself. She is now fine. And as far as I know she was never bullied because of it.

    I hope the sessions help and you get the support you need. Keep us posted. Hugs Mrs H xxx PS Sorry for the essay x

    • 17th August 2014 / 6:50 pm

      Loved the essay!! It is very hard, as often you kick yourself as a parent, but at least we recognise (finally) when things need sorting, and we just help with lots of love, hugs and support. xx And most definitely accepting a virtual hug! Can’t wait to collect in person at Blogfest!!!! You better be going!! xxx

  4. 15th August 2014 / 6:07 pm

    It sounds like you are doing everything u can to help your little ones speech now that you recognise there is an issue with it. I think as mom’s we always give ourselves a hard time and feel guilty especially when it comes to the time we spend with our kids.If she is not noticing her stammer yet and its not bothering her then I shouldn’t worry and progress with her sessions and it might not be as much of an issue when she is older as she will learn how to cope and deal with it. At least it has been recognised and you can help her with it, I will look forward to reading your next post and best of luck x

    • 17th August 2014 / 6:17 pm

      What a lovely comment. Thank you so much. You are right – as parents we beat ourselves up about anything and everything, but I suppose at least that makes us good, caring people who only want whats best. I will post again to let you know whats new, but I really have high hopes for her, as it’s not deemed as severe and I think we have fought it quick enough. Thanks so much again for your lovely comment. xx

  5. 15th August 2014 / 5:58 pm

    A sounding board is exactly what your blog is. Is where you will find others that Ferrell similar, or are going through Simular things.
    I don’t have experience of a stammer, but I do have experience of speech therapy, and the person helping you sounds great xx

    • 15th August 2014 / 5:59 pm

      I apologize for my atrocious grmer and spelling! Phone vwas making up words!!

    • 17th August 2014 / 12:46 pm

      Thank you so much – this is very comforting to hear. I feel very lucky to be blogging now as I really do feel very much part of a very large, loving and caring family!! H is luckily not as severe as some, so I have high hopes for her. Thank you again so much for commenting. xx

  6. 15th August 2014 / 12:06 pm

    My oldest has one. It showed up well before the birth of my second. It isn’t lack of attention. It is heartbreaking but I don’t believe guilt and self blame gets us mums anywhere.

  7. 15th August 2014 / 11:56 am

    No experience here (mine are just learning to talk) but this is very useful and helpful to know. I hope that she improves with her speech, over time, but I am sure that there is help out there if you need it. Good luck hun – keep us posted yeah x x x x

    • 17th August 2014 / 6:22 pm

      Hey you. Yep, you’re right – it’s just something that perhaps we need to be aware of. I’m pretty positive that most of this is still her ‘growing up’ and finding her words etc, but there are other ‘tells’ that show it as a little more, especially with the family history. Thanks for commenting, lovely. xxx

  8. 15th August 2014 / 8:14 am

    I’m so sorry to hear your little girl is struggling like this. Hopefully the speech therapist will help her to overcome or at least control it. Best of luck xx

    • 17th August 2014 / 6:25 pm

      Thank you so much. As Ive said to some others who’ve commented, luckily her case is not a severe one, certainly at this stage, though this can worsen or get better with time. We will just have to wait and see, and give her as much help and support as we can in the meantime. Thank you so much for your lovely comment. xx

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